Day 45 – had the most beautiful afternoon, my 5 favorite people, nature walk, waterfall, kids using their imagination, reminder for us of happy times in past, easy chatter. Followed by fish n chips on the beach. And chilling together for the night. Was a happy time with great new memories.
Random thoughts are flowing hard and fast today. I believe money can bring happiness within reason.
Not enough money brings on financial pressures for example, educational, transport, housing, food etc.
Yet to much can bring on hatred, arrogance, power struggles.
For me I’d like enough to be able to put my children and my self through schooling, to be able to sleep at night not worrying about unpaid or overdue bills, or how ill mange to feed us. To be able to have a safe reliable car. To be able to take myself to the doctors (am able to take my babies when they need it). Maybe even enough to get my hair cut once in a while.
While I don’t think money alone brings happiness, I believe it can bring a more stress free life.
Day 44 – i had a few positives but ill only talk if one today. Was invited to a friends child’s birthday party. Among the happy giggling children. I observed my friend and her long term partner interacting together. It was magic to see the playfulness and happiness upon each of there faces. After there struggles I felt hope for not only their bond and family. But for my own. It was blissful laughing and joking. So relaxed and easy.
Ps I’ve started doing my positive 365 posts the follow morning. As I’m finding so many more positives this way.
The book “he’s just not that into you” sucks and the authors a ducktard. There I said it. Years ago I read it for a laugh. Good book, funny, a lot of laughs. This was when I was with the love of my life and all was happy. Fast forward. And I no longer like it. Because ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, the book holds a lot of truth that I don’t want to face. Yesterday I pick up the book to reread an getting to the first chapter I put it down quickly. Not needing to continue. Sadness washed over me a I realised I still remember the bulk of what was written and the ducktard Who wrote it is right. He’s just not that into me.
Day 43 – despite my hard times I’m facing at the moment. I’m grateful for being alive. A close friend has had two people she knows succeed at sucide in less then a week. I’m grateful my two attempts were not successful.