Day 122 – despite the blistering cold wind (mid winter here) the sky is so clear and blue. Rugging up nice and warm I went to sit at the beach a few minutes wall from my home. Stretching in front of my the beautiful calm sea. Allowing myself the opportunity of calmness, I let my eyes wonder to the snow upon the stunning mountains. I live in such a beautiful place.
Day 121 – I’ve been sitting here for such a long time listening to the waves, trying so hard to find a positive today. Then it dawned on me.
I had a major breakthrough with my children especially my son today. He challenged me to the point off tears last night. Very out of character disrespectful behavior. I tried everything from taking his electronics away to grounding him. Nothing phased him so off to bed two hours early.
Fast forward to this afternoon he gt home from school. I sat him down explained how his actions hurt me, also exactly what I expect from him including changes he needs to make as well as myself and his sister.
Wow I know it’s early days but wow such a huge change. We talked, laughed, had family cuddles. He did his jobs without needed to be ask. He did well. His younger sister followed his lead, no tears or tantrums.
Made me realise maybe, just maybe I’m doing something right.
Love my babies xxx
. Bpd exaggerates …it doesn’t invent!
I read the above quote on
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And its truly how i feel about boarderline personality disorder (bpd)
Last but certainly not least we have reached the final list in my “sharing the love” series. Thanks for the ongoing support and love from each and every blogger I’ve been lucky enough to come across in blogging land x
Day 120 – I love my children more then anything in this world but I’m so very grateful the two week school holidays are over and my darlings are back at school. We’ve had highs and lows. Sickness and laughter. And everything in between. Funny part of me not getting nights off or time off for two weeks by lunchtime time ill be missing them and wishing they were home. Hope they enjoy their space from each other to :)
Day 119 – time for a better attitude. So my positive for today is recognizing disappointment and sadness of the past few days and letting them go. Allowing myself to feel and move on.
Day 118 – drunk the only positive today is being damn drunk fml
Meant to be something small, few friends, a few drinks and lots of laughs. But it’s now 3:30pm. My mum was meant to have my kids for the night, haven’t heard from her. My best mate hasn’t made contact. Other mates either forgot my birthday or ignoring me. And I have no idea why.
So it’ll be me, myself and my bottle of wine.
Never felt this alone or tragic
Happy fucking 30th Kelly
Day 117 – the last 48 hours have been rough. However a huge thanks to those of you who wished me a happy birthday yesterday. Made the day a little more bareable x