Last week

Heart pounding, skin feeling like its on fire, trying, failing. Hoping, nearly praying. Children aware. Trying to channel my thoughts to productive things. Hands shaking while my brain is screaming. Heart rate up as is fear. Shame and guilt is tearing me apart. At a loss but can not harm. Focusing losing the battle


28 thoughts on “Last week

  1. It is great that you have recognised that you are losing it, now do what they taught you in therapy and do your best to get through it. Remember, this will not last, he is not you and he is not everything!!!!

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