One thing i did at dbt therapy was diary cards. Seven days a week marking down skills I’d used. 1-10 on the different emotions, urges etc. Man I despised them. I tried to get out of it. Made excuses why I didn’t complete it. Then I started doing it. I realised they were a powerful tool in healing. Mostly because I needed to learn happiness and joy. It made me see progress. I’d also write notes as a reminder to why I felt that way.
Lately with feeling low again I’ve thought of them. I’ve decided to ring my old therapist tomorrow and ask if she can send me a months worth. And if after a month I don’t see a huge improvement I’ll request to be put back on the mental health system.
Im giving myself a month. Because I know I need to re prove to myself I can do this. I don’t need to have a therapist fix it. I think having a running record will give me the confidence to continue and not allow myself to get that sick again.
Time to be proactive (and I’ll be honest I do love the “in your face” feeling I get when I prove my doubters wrong.