I’ve got such a strong urge to ring you. Not text but ring and ask you to come over. I just want to lay with my back against you. Your strong arms around me. Protecting me making me feel safe. To tell me its all going to be ok. To just be together even for a short while. Feeling your heart beat listening to you breathe. No words just to feel. I need the comfort of your touch. I need you right now. And as much as I need, I know I can’t have that. Instead as I lay in bed with pillows surrounding me to feel less alone. A few tears escape as I try to muster the strength to close my eyes praying I won’t dream of you again like so many other nights.