Shit I hate BPD. Fear of rejection. Fear of abandonment. Fear of friendships and relationships. Fear of what feels like everything. Its hard today. Something’s upset me. Which it shouldn’t. However can’t seem to shake the feelings. I really just want to feel like my normal self. Not this over emotional, out of control, panicked self. I popped my own balloon haha didn’t need anyone to do it for me. Feelings of I’m not worth it. Better off being alone then stuffing up someone else’s life. Subjecting someone to this craziness. Damn just realised that maybe its not BPD. Maybe its me. Just plain old me that’s the problem. And that its convenient that I have a personally disorder which pretty much says I have major issues with interpersonal relationships.