Daily positive 44

Well there’s a few today.

I slept! Yes glorious amazing magical dream free sleep . I’m in a little shock 9 hours. Woke half a dozen times. But I can handle that because the rest of the time was perfect. I feel alive, refreshed, ready to take on the rest of what ever withdrawals come my way.

Also my sailor again was sneaky, and thoughtful and left me some money hidden in my art case for stuff me n the house might need. So I ordered the art pens I’ve been dreaming off







Tried my hand a shoetangles sharpies, black, gold and silver. A couple of pairs of opshop shoes and this is what i came up with. Not liking the pink. But love the green and green. Which do you prefer

My little art case


Thought I’d share my tools of zentangle, of course art sketch books and the above. I’d say its cost about $50 to get what I have including folders, shoes, etc.

I’d have to say though out of the whole lot the my top 5 items would be

1. 6h pencil
2. Fine tip black pen 0.4
3. 6b pencil for shading
4. Rubber
5. Pencil sharpener

So I reckon for about $10 you could start zentangle art


Been pretty quiet on here going off prescription medication is the worst. I’ve battled my way through 3 nights 4 days. Last night I finally feel asleep at 3 am back up at 7. Not nightmares tho, gotta count the blessings. Went to town. Ended up nearly in a full blown panic attack. Shakes, sweaty hands, heart rate up, felt like I was going to be sick, couldn’t focus. Pushed through and had to go get antibiotics anyways so chatted to the guy in there. Whom said the doctors should have weaned me off them not just cold turkey. And give my previous experience, should have had a safety plan in place. But withdrawals are “normal” there’s no saying how bad or for how long they will last. He did say the drugs are usually out of the system in about five days but again could be longer.

So I’m the lead up to night 4 I’m all but preying for sleep and to be a step closer to being quitepine free. I wish my sailor was here. I could really do with just snuggling up to him, but I know he can’t be here till end of the weekend. So my plan is tonight, bubble bath with muscle relax stuff, curling up in front of the fire with blanket, chocolate, and chips. No coffee after 7pm ( my poor body will.go into even more shock with that). No computer or cell phone. Just calm, relaxed to hopefully lead me into a peaceful dream free night.

Want to do something for him

My sailor got a call out of the blue this morning to go away for work. Kind of threw me considering he was on the bus not 4 hours later. Hopefully only a few days this time. I walked him to the bus stop, had tears as he left. So hard to describe the pull of wanting to fully support him and my longing for him to stay.

On the way back I was reminded that i wanted to find something special for him a little gift something to say I love you. He’s always doing special little things for me. I have drawn a blank for weeks. Until I got home and looked around. Picked out a piece of wood. Pulling down his tool bag I rummaged for the tool Id seen him use for carvings.  Spent 10 minutes seeing if it was possible for me to actually carve.

Heres what I came out with


So while he’s a way I’m going going to secretly working on a carving for him. Pretty excited