Trying to look at things a little differently this time with sailor away for work again. Part of me is more at ease, relaxed. Because I feel we are being more open so I feel more connected to him. More confident in us. Knowing he’s def coming home. My bpd brings the fear, learning to control it.
The other side makes it harder. This time I felt the lump in my throat, emotions building as he left. Not wanting him to go at all. But I know I’ll support him no matter what, so something I need to get use to.
So my challenge is to trust in us, learn to adjust when my mans away. And keep the lines o communication open when I’m finding it hard
Because he’s worth it