Been pretty quiet on here going off prescription medication is the worst. I’ve battled my way through 3 nights 4 days. Last night I finally feel asleep at 3 am back up at 7. Not nightmares tho, gotta count the blessings. Went to town. Ended up nearly in a full blown panic attack. Shakes, sweaty hands, heart rate up, felt like I was going to be sick, couldn’t focus. Pushed through and had to go get antibiotics anyways so chatted to the guy in there. Whom said the doctors should have weaned me off them not just cold turkey. And give my previous experience, should have had a safety plan in place. But withdrawals are “normal” there’s no saying how bad or for how long they will last. He did say the drugs are usually out of the system in about five days but again could be longer.
So I’m the lead up to night 4 I’m all but preying for sleep and to be a step closer to being quitepine free. I wish my sailor was here. I could really do with just snuggling up to him, but I know he can’t be here till end of the weekend. So my plan is tonight, bubble bath with muscle relax stuff, curling up in front of the fire with blanket, chocolate, and chips. No coffee after 7pm ( my poor body will.go into even more shock with that). No computer or cell phone. Just calm, relaxed to hopefully lead me into a peaceful dream free night.