I’m scared I’ve put a major spanner in the works and stuffed or began to stuff up the best thing that’s come into my life in years. My sailor has my heart. BPD has my head. How I love someone so much but be in a sense allowing my mind to sabotage it. It super frustrating to be battling my own brain to constantly see some things so blown out of proportion. Minor pick your battle issue turning into fear or rejection. I fee so selfish and wrong. But its like I’ve lost the power and its taking over my world. I feel crazy and stupid .