My fiancé is waiting for the bus to come home. 9 days away for work its the longest weve been apart. It’s been a roller coaster of a week, I’ve felt every emotion this week, I trust him, I’ve missed him, I felt fear he won’t return, jealously, anger that he leaves, finally joy he’s returning. I feel guilt for my worries, he’s always come home, never given me reason not to trust him. Yet my mind went to dark places this week. I think its time to get extra support. Because I won’t allow old patterns not my past to ruin the future with us.