Wow its just dawned on me

My fiancé is away for work again today. I always struggle when he’s gone. This weekend is a little different tho. I’ve been feeling so mixed up since he left this morning. For anger, frustration, happiness, excitement, fear. I’ve been trying to work out why. The it dawned on me. This weekend all and I mean all his out of town friends are coming to our town. And I’m meeting them all. Its all abit overwhelming.

I’ve meet a few of his friends (his family lives in another country). But its the first time the opportunity has arisen for me to meet everyone. To see why he does for work.

Even though I know his job and the people he’s around, we’ve had phone n online conversations. Its in a way like “home” n work to separate things. Now its all coming g together. I won’t lie I’m terrified to meet them. Not only my social anxiety. But wanting to make a good impression. To get on with the people who mean so much to my fiancé.

Then it dawned on me. In four and a half months (yes I’m counting down the days) I’ll have a husband. We will be married. I want this, I love him and can’t wait to be his wife. I’m just suddenly scared. Def not cold feet. I guess its more. Holy shit I said I’d never get married. Now I’ve meet the man of my dreams and he my amazing man wants me, asked me and is marrying me.

Oh my god. I must sound childish. With my swirls of crazy emotions!


5 thoughts on “Wow its just dawned on me

  1. Breathe…deeply…close your eyes…breathe again…now where is that re-framing tool in your toolkit? Re-frame this event in more manageable perspective…do the little things any wildly in love girl might do…your hair, your nails, set aside something you would like to wear…pray…and breathe…remember that his friends are most likely not one-eyed, antlered, 12-toed aliens. They’re people who like your fiance a lot, and know that if he is in love with you, you are very special…Don’t forget to breathe… ❤ 🙂 I will be praying for you. Keep us posted, dear one.


  2. Oh my this make my heart soar with joy….I am so happy for you, sweetheart his family and friends are going to love you…just be you….that’s why he love you for who you are…and I am sure that all his friends and family will love you as much as he does…..deep breaths….its all gonna be fantastic….xxkat


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s