Post to thank you for your support I know I’ve not replied to your comments but I will. I’ve read each and everyone of them and truly appreciate them. Firstly while I understand some people have advised me to “leave the arsehole” yip deleted that comment. I’m not going to. My safety is not at risk nor my children’s. Even though some tension is felt by my children. They are not witnessing what’s going on. We both have kept things good around them. And I am not leaving my husband. If he had cancer I’d stick by him, if he had cancer and wasn’t getting treatment I’d stick by him n support him to get medical attention. In my eyes I married my husband knowing he has mental health issues. And I would not give up on him because he is unwell. I know I’m frustrated, hurting, at times angry. I also know I married a good man, whom usually accepts help and seeks it out. Marriage is temporary, disposable even to many. To me old old school married for life. I will stand by my man.