With some people. While I’ve had amazing support n a lot of understanding people given the situation my family finds ourselves in. I’m really over the few who have stated I should leave hubby. Its nothing to do with me. That I’m obsessing. I’m stupid to stick around blah blah fucking blah.
For the god damn record. I am taking great care of me and my kids. My home looks great, my kids have healthy meals, emotionally I’m doing my up most to support them. I’m keeping up the rules so things are normal. I’m fighting to keep our financial situation going, even though 2 days out from Christmas there’s no money coming in. Om attending appointments. I’m booked in with my doctor to get advice on meds n counciling. I’m taking care of a huge yard my hubs turned into a business, plus 10 chickens without the tools I need to do it properly. I’m showering daily, I’m doing my best to sleep. Sorted Christmas. All while being in limbo about my husband, his health and our marriage. Supporting him the best I can even tho he still won’t talk to me or anyone. I’m supporting the staff to do there job. I’ve not gone back onto old patterns of self harmong nor suicidal thoughts
I am busting my fucken arse to do it right and not even a week after I watched my sick husband leave me and move out, watched him drive out of town. Without my so called obsessing I wouldnt have known where he was let alone that he’s seeking help and in an acute mental health hospital.
To to fucken hell with those who could do it better and their fucken judgement. I’m just a women trying to keep her husband alive and family together