It hurts to much. I feel like I failed him and me. Like now I’ve abandoned him and our marriage. I’m angry at me for not being stronger and sticking in longer. I’m hurt mental heqlh have let us both down in the situation. I’m still scared for him, worry doesn’t go away. I’m taking care of me and the kids and my mum. I doing it all. And I’m just broken. He is the love of my life. We Kew more about each other then not couples cause we meet in therapy. I’m not able to process it, there’s no logical to any off it. I physically feel like I’m going to be sick.