Like I’m walking through a dream, functioning, talking, yet numb to the world. I’m so exhausted and have not motivation. Yet I’m wanting to get up and move. I want to be happy again. But when I laugh or smile I feel guilty and ashamed. I have so much negatively surrounding me yet no control to minimise it. I feel crazy because I haven’t gone insane. I want to be out of the house yet when I leave I head straight home. I want to be around people but when I am I want to be alone. I use to get a day here and there of this now its everyday.