It’s been a long time

Since I posted last. Life’s crazy busy but I love it. I’m back at school level five diploma in patisserie. We have regional comps coming up end of next month. And I’m feeling under pressure. Last year I entered two. A live which I received winner of class and a silver medal. And a static which I received a silver medal, and by points I came officially second against a chef with more experience. I’m still so proud. But now the comps are coming up I’m feeling odd. I’m entering 3 this year wear as many of my class are entering one.

I’m competing in the artisan bread static, where I have to produce 3 loafs, a lean, enriched and flat bread, with condiments. So I’ll do a double hydration cibbata loaf. A duck fat and bacon brioche and a foccaica still not sure which. I’ll make a artichoke ppaste and homemade butter.

Then the cheesecake, I’m doing a Bailey’s white chocolate cheesecake with a espresso, dark chocolate cremeux in the centre, a dark chocolate glaze, garnished with Bailey’s cream, chocolate covered coffee beans and gold leaf.

Then the dessert live I have 1 hour to produce a restaurant quality dessert. I’m doing a short crust tart, with raspberry fuild gel, cream cheese mousse, mango cream. Garnished with fresh mango and cubes of set raspberry gel, likely with flowers and gold leaf.

Issue being I feel overwhelmed. I had disasters for my practice runs and felt like a failure. Hubby said to focus on one element at a time and perfect that. Father then the whole item.

So I’m preparing my notes, recipes, drawings at the moment. I’m going to listen to hubby and one thing at a time. But looking at my notes I feel in over my head.

Ive two incredible tutors who I want to prove I have what it takes. I want to show them I’m worth it that I can be top of class. That I’m going to be a great chef. I want to prove to my hubby and kids that the sucifices they make for me are worth it. I want to succeed not fail. I feel expected to get gold and winner of class in all three. Maybe I’m putting that expectation on myself. It feels to much. God I just hope I can pull it all off.


16 thoughts on “It’s been a long time

  1. I’m pretty sure you can do it!!! You’ve hung in there this long, this will be a piece of cake (no pun intended) compared to a lot of things you’ve been through…Remember who you are and where you came from and you’ll do it…I have faith in you, blessings dear ❤

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      • Let me know how you do ❤ I was in a culinary school, and it was hard. Besides I was too old and I hate math and when they started converting measurements, I knew I was done. My life is being a homemaker and wife, mother and grandmama. I'm happy with that…Good thing I have a husband (39 years) who has taken care of me.

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      • I understand that the math is the worst part lol especially food costings. I to was a home maker n single mama for 13 years. I started young in the hope I’d one day have a career. We have to do what makes us happy and content 🙂

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  2. How wonderfully exciting! So happy to hear that things are going so well. Best wishes for the comp. For me, taking time off to re-relax always helped at test time and end-of-term music performance juries. Much more than cramming/over thinking.

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  3. Late catching up on your blog posts, but wanted to encourage you! Through the challenges, it sounds like you are finding your “voice” and your “gifts” of baking! Hang in there. You’re young enough to make the right changes for the rest of your life. I was 50 before I realized I had to change destructive negative thoughts! Good work….lots of people will learn from your experiences. Hugs . . .


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