Happy Mama’s day

The cake I made my mama for mother’s day. A tradition of making her a cake each year 6th year. Progressed so much since the first year. Seven layers of chocolate cake with raspberry and butter cream. Handmade roses, flowers and leafs.


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Comp practice one month till the big weekend

In a month I’m competing with my son in a big cooking competition. So been getting my practice on for one of my entrys. Bailey’s cheese cake, with a centre of espresso dark chocolate cremeux, a dark chocolate mirror glaze and will be decorated with chocolate cover roasted coffee beans, Bailey’s cream, a tempered chocolate curls and gold leaf. Starting to get excited. Love glazing desserts brings a sense of satisfaction

Merry Christmas everyone

So excited to be spending our first Christmas as a couple together. What more could a girl want two amazing kids and an incredible fiancé.

Have a great one bloggers

Birthdays

Birthdays. Love them or hate them the come and go. Another year older and hopefully wiser. My 30th birthday is tomorrow and whilst age isn’t an issue with me, in fact I’m content with getting older. I still get the familiar feelings of excitement followed my disappointment. In my near 30 years I’ve only had two birthdays I remember enjoying.

My 25th, I let loose had people over went partying. Got girly with hair and make up and a stunning outfit (this is a rare thing for me) and despite the disasters of the night, I still loved it.

Next was my 26th the love of my life suprised me by booking a motel, taking me to dinner an really spoiling me with time and love.

My babies always make it better without them I wouldn’t celebrate.

Now I’m sitting here on the eve of my birthday just plain sad. It’s the first one since my relationship ended. And I really miss him. I miss my step sons who I won’t get to see. Not precious cards or cuddles from my babies. No kiss good morning from my man.

The past 18 months has seen me lose so many people. I have one friend and her hubby who will turn up, my mum and my 2 children. I’ve recently managed to stuff up everything with my best male friend. I want him here. I wish I was surrounded by people.

I feel so alone and lost.

However time to plaster the smile upon my sad face so my children don’t see my pain.