We went to hell and back

Over the past few weeks with being in competition and me losing my mind but so many positives. We gained strength as a family unit really supporting and backing each other. I’m proud of all of us. My hubby really backing me emotionally and physically. Being there for the kids in so many ways. Being patient beyond all expectations. Believing in me when I didn’t. Showing our son what real support from a dad is. Protecting our girl and guiding her in ways she hasn’t experienced. Stepping up around the house to take pressure off me. All the while never complaining. Watching our boy gain a confidence he was lacking, pride in himself and his cooking. Having him and I grow closer having a bond of food and competing.

Originally I was going to enter three classes in the comp and our boy one. But the pressure of life got on top of me. So I dropped one. This past weekend it was time. I was due to drop my statics in the comp. On the way my cheesecake started slipping off the plate, then melting. But some how managed to get the cheese cake and artisan bread up.

Bailey’s and white chocolate cheesecake with a dark chocolate and espresso cremeux, glazed with a dark chocolate mirror glaze. A different Bailey’s cream cheese icing, garnished with chocolate and gold leaf.

For the breads I had to produce three different types so I made a 18 hr double hydration ciabatta. A laminated and plaited duck fat and bacon brioche and a garlic and rosemary foccicia. I also add artichoke paste and whipped butter.

Sadly we didn’t get a photo of the actual comp dish of my boys but he did the veg soup live, he made a borscht with a horse radish and sour cream garnished with chives

We had prize giving and we place extremely well.

Our boy received a silver medal and over all winner of class, along side awesome prizes

And I won 2 silver medals

One of the proudest moments as a competitor, a mum and as a family


Better late then never

Letting go of expectations of other people. It’s Mother’s Day and I’m sad. No breakfast in bed, no card. My five year old is to young to remember and my son doesn’t know what to do. The normal is either my ex or my mother taking them to get me a little gift and helping them with the day. I usually make a big cake for my mum and now ex mum n law. This year there’s nothing. My mothers not talking to me and being an ex I can’t go and see my ex mum in law. I have a present for them both even though one won’t ever get it.

Mother’s Day means alot to me. I make such a huge deal out of it. I’m just sad. No one bothered to help my kids with it and especially my son is unhappy. I have to drop the expectation that people will step up. Actions well lack of actions speaks volumes. Sometimes life is just cruel and unfair.

My idea of perfection

A hot summers day like today with awesome sea breeze, chilling with ice-cream, my favorite people. Play at the park n splash in the ocean.

What’s yours???

Love the feeling ….

Of being able to sit back with a coffee and ciggy enjoying the good buzz of achievement. This weekend has been such a great one. I set myself tasks, this weekend being my kitchen. Dinners for a week in the freezer, at least six weeks of kids lunches in the cupboard and freezer. Everything from home made cakes and slices to sandwiches all pre wrapped ready to get out night before. Every cupboard cleaned and tidy. Saw my mummy and spent lots of time with my children. Hung out with my other three favorite people. Laughing, smiling and just enjoying the happiness from the little things. I’m sitting here smiling at the beautiful memories I now have. I’m well on to my way of a simple yet happy life. {live, laugh, love}

Day 17 – Handsome thinker


Hey everyone, today I’m introducing my son. He’s just asked me to sign him up to start his own blog. Mmmm joys of a 10 year old who is such a thinker. Wanting to design apps, become famous on youtube, run his own business and much more. Such a proud mummy here.

Day 11- Timeless beauty


Introducing my beautiful daughter 🙂 Do you have children? Share is you’d like, my daughter is 4 and my son is 10. Hope your all enjoying your night? As for me I’m enjoying the bliss known as children sleeping.