Letting go of expectations of other people. It’s Mother’s Day and I’m sad. No breakfast in bed, no card. My five year old is to young to remember and my son doesn’t know what to do. The normal is either my ex or my mother taking them to get me a little gift and helping them with the day. I usually make a big cake for my mum and now ex mum n law. This year there’s nothing. My mothers not talking to me and being an ex I can’t go and see my ex mum in law. I have a present for them both even though one won’t ever get it.
Mother’s Day means alot to me. I make such a huge deal out of it. I’m just sad. No one bothered to help my kids with it and especially my son is unhappy. I have to drop the expectation that people will step up. Actions well lack of actions speaks volumes. Sometimes life is just cruel and unfair.
It’s a privilege and an honour to have entered the new world of being a mother for the first time 11 years ago. The second time just about 5 years ago. I just wanted to shout to the blogging world how proud I am to be a mama.
Meet the new addition to my family 🙂 Many years ago at high school, I dreamed off joining the photography class, learning to use a film camera and develop the film in a dark room. But being in foster care, I knew I couldn’t afford it. So I kept my dreams to myself until earlier this year nearly 15 years later. It was a few months before my birthday when my mum arrived with this awesome camera for me. She works as a volunteer at a charity shop. She had found this brand new in the original box for a grand total of $12. I was so happy. It’s a Mitsuba Deluxe Camera TC-5000, focus free 35mm film, zoom type lens, deluxe electronic flash. I can’t wait to get film to go out and take photos. Whilst I love digital, the thought of film brings back my dream.