Just wanted to thank everyone who has liked and is following my blog. I’ve just hit 100 people following me. It’s an achievement for me considering I never thought anyone would be interested in following me. Happy moment 🙂
After a lack of faith in myself lately, I’ve decided I need to get my camera out again. No matter what people say or think I need to get back out there. I adore every part of photography. So time to make my little stamp on the world.
How do you deal with making hard decisions for your kids, where you know it’s right in the long term. But in the here and now it’s going to shatter there little hearts into a million pieces. Where you want and dream for something so badly, but no it’s not going to happen???
Meet the new addition to my family 🙂 Many years ago at high school, I dreamed off joining the photography class, learning to use a film camera and develop the film in a dark room. But being in foster care, I knew I couldn’t afford it. So I kept my dreams to myself until earlier this year nearly 15 years later. It was a few months before my birthday when my mum arrived with this awesome camera for me. She works as a volunteer at a charity shop. She had found this brand new in the original box for a grand total of $12. I was so happy. It’s a Mitsuba Deluxe Camera TC-5000, focus free 35mm film, zoom type lens, deluxe electronic flash. I can’t wait to get film to go out and take photos. Whilst I love digital, the thought of film brings back my dream.
The tears are just sitting there dearing to escape. To start sliding slowly down my already damp cheeks. Threatening to start and never stop. I’m not a crier, in fact I hate crying myself. I feel like its a weakness, like I’ve failed. Grieving my loss is like someone is sitting on my chest, not letting me breath, the pain is describable. I wish I could end the process. To be on the other side. Not fresh in it. I can’t even think clearly to type.
So I’m backkkkk hehe did you miss me? Not so much? Lol I understand 🙂
So much has happened since I last posted. Personal heartache and struggles, to kids birthdays, to me being really ill and least not no access to the internet. I’ve really missed blogging and getting wonderful feedback though.
I have so many photos to share and so much I want to write about.
So please check back.
PS I’m responding to messages tonight so if you think I’ve forgotten you I most definitely haven’t 🙂